Trouble by Non Pratt

TroubleTrouble by Non Pratt

My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Beautifully written. It made me tear up a couple of times. Both Hannah and Aaron felt so real – a mass of contradictions, bad decision, stupid bullish or bravado teenage logic.

Hannah at first was grating in the extreme. But then her character really grows in a subtle way across the course of the book. It is brilliantly done – and it doesn’t feel like a character ‘arc’ – more like, as she moves away from her old life, another side of her personality comes out. I did feel there could be a little more about her actual pregnancy and her worries about being a mum, but in a way it is kind of a character trait that she’s not thinking so much about the future only about the things going on now.

Aaron was a lovely character too, trying to atone for his past by being the perfect guy to Hannah. At points he comes over a little too perfect, like the hero Hannah needs, rather than how he might behave considering his own self doubts. I totally loved him and believed him as a character, but I wanted Hannah to confront his oddness a bit more, and I get why she wouldn’t – because she doesn’t want to spoil things. But he is like a cuckoo child a little bit, adopting someone else’s family, and this creates a conflict near the end.

Both characters are so likeable and full of depth. I love how the book ends, and I would definitely read a sequel to see how they deal with parenthood and their mixed up friendship/relationship. The nature of which is something created out of both their needs in that short space of time, and how would it develop when the rules changed? All this is so interesting that at the end I wished there was more. I so wanted to know how Hannah dealt with being a mother in her unique, sometimes insightful, sometimes scattered way. There’s just so much potential for looking at that in the way she oscillates between being teenage and more mature in her handling of things. And how Aaron dealt with the truth being out there about him and the potential of a shift in his relationship with Hannah and her family, and how he’d be with the baby. And I would’ve loved to see how all the kids at school would be with Hannah as a mum. All that made me wish for a sequel and I hope one gets written one day!

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What it feels like to be me

Every morning eyes open and I appear, slowly awakening from the blackness and somehow there is continuity. The story of me, being told and lived, simultaneously.

Every cell is different from seven years ago so how can I be the same, or even know I am? How can past worries be consigned to memory when the ones here now seem so real?

 How do l I own some actions: the prizes and the pratfalls, but not others: the walking or the sitting? Am I only the ‘decided’ or also the ‘involuntary’? Is there a distinction?

 Do I own my thoughts or are they pounding on my head like raindrops? Do I own my feelings or are they wafting through my consciousness like smells?

 Am I the stillness or the movement, or am I both? Am I the face in the mirror or the openness inside? Where’s the dividing line, the edge of my body, or the edge of my view? 

 Am I everything or nothing? What if me is just the story? The story used to function. What if there’s only this: happening, and then: that, and then: something else.

 Sometimes I see motes of light, floating in the corner of my view.  They remind me that strange things happen that anything is possible.